Mixed Emotions

Yesterday Beth and I went to By Grace Orphange in Kiole and then met up with Sandy and went to KENWA (Kenya Network of Women with AIDS) in Korogocho. In between we ate and got lost in Nairobi.. opps. When we returned we brought a slice of black forest cake for Gaia, another volunteer, as it was her birthday and we missed her birthday lunch. We celebrated by going to the Flame Tree, the bar across the street when everyone was finished with work. It was an interesting day, as we met with various people from all walks of life but they all had one thing in common, HIV. The day was long and emotional but Beth and I decided that you cant drain yourself by being sad, rather you must be challenged and empowered to make a change in the best way you are able. The life conditions, as I explained with Kibera, is really unimaginable and yet these people live, some with AIDS and many with a strong faith and a positive attitude. It's a miracle to see, a miracle that I hope one day can be changed. As we were walking through the slums I saw what the life of the kids at Nyumbani could be like, and it is my hope that they realize how truly lucky they are to be where they are and to have what they have. Which brings me to you and me. Ive gotten lots of emails from friends and family worrying about me, I hope that I am not misleading you. I am so happy here, I am so safe and I love everything about it here. No, its not America, but maybe that's what makes it so great. You shouldn't worry for me, rather pray for the kids and families whose lives are more of a challenge than you or I have been through. However, I LOVE getting your emails, they put a smile on my face each and everyday. Last night I talked to my dad and it made me feel like I was at home for those 20 minutes. The phone cut off and I didn't get a chance to tell him I love him and miss him, so pass the word! Also, I have texted a few of you, I don't think you have gotten them...boo. Know that I'm thinking about you all lots. My mom calls often and that is just wonderful. Having a group of people who love for you and care for you should be added to the list of essential survival items. Food, water, shelter and LOVE. I say that will all seriousness. I remember when I worked at the hospital sick patients would have healthier vitals and would feel much better if they had regular visitors. Just an observation of mine, but I think it has some meat to it. I know Ive told each and everyone of you how much I appreciate you, at least I hope I have, if not shame on me, as I mean to. It really means so much to me to have all of you there. Everyone always says "Anna you are so independent", and its true, I am, but as I grow up I'm learning that although I may be independent I am no one without my family and friends, especially my parents. My friends and family are the rock that I stand on knowing it is ok to go on and thus I thank you for that. Alright, I'm making myself homesick. ha ha. No, I really don't get homesick. I miss you all tons, but I have another home here too. :) One you are all welcome to come to. I finally finished the Retreats for the Hostel teens. Its set for two whole Saturdays and we have about 33 students. I'm very excited. With that said, I must go deliver the final copies and then grab some lunch... its rice and dengu today... yum. Beth and I are going to Karen after that to go grocery shopping, print pictures, go for a walk, and get phone credit (sorry for hanging up on you dad, I ran out of credit). Have a wonderful day and keep in touch. Love, peace and Godspeed